I take responsibility. When you end a dysfunctional part of your life, I said, “you open up space for life to surprise you…” . I invited life to surprise me and then I committed to sharing the result with you.
Of course, I wasn’t expecting that to be a new, longer-lasting, deeply debilitating, can’t move, won’t work for a year bout of depression.
But that’s what happened.
Fuck. I couldn’t share that. Not here. Not then. Forgive me.
But I am doing it now. Not the details, but the fact of it.
I’ve not spent 1000 hours crafting this post because that kind of perfectionism is partly what got me into trouble in the first place; brought on an anxiety so annihilating that I ceased to function.
Better to accept the imperfection in anything I write (or do) than stay silent. So, this is me just checking in and saying hi, speak again soon – definitely in fewer than twelve months anyway!
I’ve retitled this site with my name to allow me to post pieces beyond the remit of my mentoring. But how to pursue what you value, make a living, and stay well are themes that will continue to feature.
Right, enough explaining myself.
Love and kindness always, Rachel
Links for you
Campaign to end mental health stigma and encourage people to reach out: Time to Change Wales
Book on depression that I found helpful and enjoyable: Sunbathing in the rain: A cheerful book about depression by Gwyneth Lewis